Wednesday 13th October 2010

Two and a half weeks have gone by and I still feel like I'm unprepared for life at university.  It doesn't feel like I've learnt as much as I should have yet I keep convincing myself that it's all going to be fine, I'm coping with everything at the moment and it shouldn't get too out of hand when the exams come around.  

I don't know...

Sunday 10th October 2010

Ooh yay, a whole week with my trusted friend.  Let's all hope for a fun filled week this week, I don't want my life to settle down just yet, I want to be able to venture into what I hope is the unknown and encounter various people.

Ahh who do I kid, as soon as he turned up on my door, he managed to remove all negative buffs from me.  I'm just happy I have a friend who has enough mana to do that.

Tuesday 5th October 2010

With uni life now up and running I feel like I'm actually making use of my existence here in the world.  Regardless of that I still feel slightly empty on the inside.  The friends I have made long ago are now falling more and more distant.  The friends I make now, right here at the university feel more like just amicable acquaintances.  Nonetheless my upset is refrained from display and my infamous façade continues.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do.  I feel like giving up but it seems such a waste since I've been given the opportunity to get back onto my own two feet again.

I feel like crying, but I don't know why.  I want to scream and kick and shout, but there's something holding me back.

I feel shit.