OK I take back what I said last night, things are just as depressing as ever, with the fact that I have tons of work to do to get what I need for university.
And all of a sudden, everything seems all so unachieveable and my whole life's just crashing down. Wow, extreme or what.
I've just gotten back from my interview at Birmingham University in the sloppy rain and the gloomy clouds and it left me quite depressed. I just awoke from a really stuffy sleep in the car and now I'm feeling really tired, half-awake at the keyboard in this dusty room. It's nice, isn't it? My throat feels sticky and the feel of the air going into my lungs isn't as clear as they could have been. Impure and stale. Then there's that uncomfortableness of just sitting around, where your clothes don't seem to like you and it's agitating you.
My room is dim and the light's starting to buzz, my clocks are beginning to tick louder than before and the things in my room just seem so lifeless... It's the life I had back when I lived on the floor above my dad's restaurant and the strange thing is, I actually enjoyed it. It's like living in the real world, with all things industrial and it's that feel of when you're out at a traditional restaurant abroad late at night, you're slightly tired and the lighting's pretty dim. I used to like that kind of life and now I come to wonder how innocent I used to be.
Well, I'm pretty down at the moment, maybe some encouragement could really help. What am I doing, I have someone to turn to, that should be more than enough *sarcasm*
*sighs* Liking your new gloves by the way xxx
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