A soon as I realised that I had an extra two hours free to myself, it disappears, where to? God knows. Whatever it was, it wasn't spent on sleep - I still had 5 hours to sleep until I got to school. The day feels so airy, so light, knowing that my time to spill will come so so soon.
I don't know about you Josh, to be having such a life and still able to pay so much attention on your old friends, to have so much time on your hands, and yet you manage to do so much better than me at my own little games. I don't know whether to envy you or to be grateful, all the time I see my own friends pass by from a starting point so much lower than my own, and to climb up so much closer to the top than I.
I'm not going to rant on about the same thing I had from last night, simply because I want to clear my mind of all stress now that I'm tired and gravitating towards my bed. I'm distracting myself by either taking it out on people or messing around with them, even if irritating them does go against how I felt yesterday, I don't know how else to manage otherwise.
The time has come for me to get my act together, to harden up against the ferocity that the cold life throws at me. The whole time I made myself believe that I was mature, I was only laid-back, never matured. Why waste free time when I could use it to work, to learn. The time has come for change, and change it shall be.
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