Rethinking My Decisions

I think that there is a certain amount work to do about this piece of english coursework.  By that, I meant a great deal of work needs to be put into it.  I just started reading over it and I think that it's pretty mediocre to me.  What can I do better about it? 

I've noticed this lately, that I'm not appreciating the standard of my work, always thinking that it's not going to be good enough.  There also comes a certain point in time that I'm hard on myself, thinking how stupid of me about the way I devise my work to play ratio. 

It's getting ridiculous and I know that, trying to enforce this new schedule comes across a hell of a lot harder than I had initially thought.  Now, is only the beginning of the realisation of the amount of effort that I would need to put in, and that is exactly what I will aim to do. 

I'll get there, eventually. 

I'm not really sure what I'm doing here, nor for a fact that why I wanted to do this in the first place.  I think that it's the thought that there would be so many opportunities open for me to choose.  This is what had clouded my judgement, making me blind of the fact that there would be so much work that I would have to dedicate myself to.  How much of a fool I am to do this...