Sunday 24th May 2009

Today's been a really laid-back day for me, I couldn't be bothered to do any work when I got up this morning. Again, I was indulged in my games for the entire day, doing nothing else apart from toilet breaks and food (and the occasional wash).

I went to bed last night (technically this morning) at 0400, when mother only just got up to do the laundry:

"Why are you brushing your teeth? And why are you awake at four in the morning?"

Waking up? I hadn't even gone to bed, but I'll just keep that to myself and let her be at ease without concern. Why was I up until such an hour? Because I spent my time sorting out friend issues - with Josh. He was feeling somewhat down which wasn't helping my current state as mine was and is down too (such matters I really can't tell), and so I spent the entire day keeping an eye on him, to show that I'd be there if he wanted me to be - cheesy I know, but it works wonders. Sometimes I wish that I get to have more friends like that, just so Josh doesn't get an earful of whatever meaningless thoughts I say all the time.

I have the dog of squishy goodness with me, burying my face every now and then into it to cry, only when the opportunity comes about when nobody else is nearby. Was considering too, to leave home for Birmingham for a day to escape from the house which casts insanity over me with its nostalgic grey-blue sky through the windows at night.

I am considering working on my creative writing too, it's been on my mind for the past few days and I'm beginning to see it as an alternate way for expression as compared to my usual ways. Poetry too, I've been trying to look for the piece I did during Christmas but no luck so far, it's definitely gone walkabouts on its little legs, waddling and roaming the pathways of my home. All the best, as they say, I'm going to give it a go, no matter how badly written it seems at the moment, I hope that sometime in the near future I'd improve on this aspect of writing.

It's 2330 now, I'd better start clearing up the living room before I trip over and die in my own tangle of wires.