That's it. I have finally made a decision that I longer trust anyone, it's been broken long ago just that I managed to delude myself into thinking that everyone had still been considerate to me. I'm not so sure about what way to go, the right way or the true way. It's a big problem I'm facing at the moment, it makes me feel as though that I'm living amongst strangers.
I'm seriously considering staying over at someone else's home for a while, to be with other people I hardly know of. It seems fine, my brother won't know, he'll see it more as me taking time out with friends, just like any normal person would do. He's far too innocent to be destroyed by my suffering, as is the same applies to my nephew, surprisingly enough. But no, I will let it all out in an alienated place, so that people won't be able to dig into my issues - no one's life is worthing damaging through my causes.
What makes it worse is that my dad arrived for the first time in months. He came, hoping to stay a couple of nights before his next flight is due but mother wouldn't let him stay: "People are looking for you, they're scrutinizing my every action waiting to find you."
With this, I have no consideration in continuing with this entry.
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