Tuesday 9th July 2009

FINALLY - with the longest day of the week drawing an end I can at last, prepare for the end of the week. It's strange, how things go so slowly when you want it to speed up, but it goes too fast when you're enjoying it. It's like time was never made to satisfy you, it was to maintain a balance between diversity, labour and health. This is a balance I'm still unfamiliar with, besides the fact that I recognised what I need less and more of, there's little oppurtunity for me to adjust these ideal changes.

It's time for me to start packing for my adventures, they're coming up all so close in such a short space of time. I realise why people wonder how I do so many things in this limited time, it surprises me how I actually get from one place to another - actually - where does the energy come from if I'm always moaning about being tired?

But putting all the time issue to one side, I have this recently: "u get A* IN ENGLISH" - msn, obviously, who'd actually speak like that *rolls eyes*. It appears to be some sort of praise, but like my depressing perceptions, I fail to accept it however it is appreciated. It's funny, how someone I had encountered years ago, turns out to be more or less how I had expected them to be, but still the attributes in which one projects, the differences between my predictions and the raw reality of it, are alarming (though they are thingsI can't quite put my finger on).

I feel tired, but when I lay down on my bed, my mind stimulates itself, reviving the activeness within. It's all geared up, not wanting to go to sleep, like a robot begging not to be switched off. It's a scary thought, but that's me, welcome to my world. Actually, don't, for your own safety.