A positive end to a very contrasting week, in my perception of things. However, this seems to contradict Adam's impression of everyone being in a "brighter" mood throughout the week, which I could also agree to some extent.
I don't know about this, of how everything seems to happen all at once. I mean, sure it's good to finally realise that a load has been lifted from off of your chest, but was the relief worth all that effort and pressure? Unfortunately I am still currently at terms with one another, still trying to decided which one outweighs the other.
Today's been a light and hazy mood for me, not reading too deeply into things, more sensory than semantic I should think.
Yet, I can't help but notice this feeling, something that's always been in the back of my head. My dearest father never played a major role in my life, but still he strikes me just as much as anyone else I know of. With his... disappearance, only this made me realise that he had contributed something to my life, whatever it may be it's definitely something I am currently missing.
I miss him, all in all, I want him back. That's too much to ask for, because I know I'm asking for something that's almost impossible, to try and bring everyone back together again like it had been a decade ago... I miss the days where we lived as one complete family, with little troubles and drama, always being able to afford what comforts us best.
I miss those days, the days where I was too young to fully appreciate everything they did for me when they were together, things that are not likely to happen again, just those once in a lifetime chances, gone with my childhood (if any).
Today, marks an unusual theme, a mixture of light-headedness and nostalgia. A great combination indeed.
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