The day I had anticipated had arrived. The sounds I heard in that concert hall, will never be replicated ever again outside those walls. It's sad, to know that as an absolute fact. Those experiences, emotions and memories that resurface during that performance, it's all been a once in a life-time opportunity.
I spent that encore moment finding ways of taking most of that experience with me, hoping that it would last me for quite some time, for years even. And I have.
I was in a completely different mood after that performance, I could take thing in no matter how fast they were thron at me. All but one thing; that delicate atmosphere, with so many hours' worth of effort put in to creating that, crippled by the harshness of the reality of this world. I won't stand to that, I'm ready to keep that special moment with me at all times, and never let go.
[Returning from the airport]
New things everyday - even though I was fully aware of Josh's habits of invading intimate spaces I never expected he would constrict me and pin me against the wall. This has made me realise something; people look for so many different things in love, with some qualities found only in a boy, or girl. This is why, I think, and my theory, is that whatever sexual orientation you are all depends what you're trying to look for in terms of love. Maybe you're tha way because that's the only way you're ever going to find it, or maybe that it flares a better chance of getting what you so very desired.
This me totally caught up in this haze, confused and confounded in the midst of what I want and need. To write this blog now, with the music I'm listening to now, it just sits so well.
So here I end on probably one of the best tones I could possibly could at this moment in life; I'm just so glad that my christmas present came at just the right time. I thank everyone who made this happen, it's done me wonders.
Yours Faithfully
Darren
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